Memoirs of a Church Girl

Now this is a bit odd but  when I think of the love walk  the figure that comes to my mind is the striding man logo and the 'Keep walking' campaign of a certain brand. The  love walk is what it is...a walk, a daily walk. It becomes immaterial that I walked  yesterday or last year if I'm not walking today and I don't plan to walk tomorrow. You never stop walking. You walk when its convienent and when it's not. You walk when you're appreciated and when you are despised and rejected. You walk in the rain, under the blazing sun and in the hurricane winds because love is a nature. We who are in Christ have it within all of us and it can weather any storm. '...Because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us'.  Romans 5: 5 . LEARNING TO WALK. I have a month old baby who is being cuddled and carried about right now. However there is no doubt in my heart that when the time is right he will walk, just like his 3 ...

Have you ever heard of the word 'Cephalophore'. Ok lets go back to those ancient and medieval times when preaching the gospel or going against the institutionalized churches had the grim penalty of a beheading. History has it that some of these ancient mystics (some of them women) would stand up pick up their heads and walk away and give themselves a proper burial. Kind of reminds you of the Headless Horseman of Sleepy Hollow, right?  Apostle Paul is famed to be one of them. His decapitated head was said to have said the name of Jesus Christ up to thirty times before it fell silent, never to preach about that name on earth again. These are men and women who operated on a mystic level that was unbelievable. Some of them willingly gave themselves to be burnt  and flayed as if it was some kind of fun game. Hebrews 11 spoke of these class of people, ''and others were tortured, not accepting deliverance; that they might obtain a better resurrection:And others had trial ...

It's so easy to fall into the trap of complacency. I did at a stage in my life. I would go for weeks without touching my bible , would go most mornings without praying and sometimes wouldn't even bother to take notes in church. You know that feeling of 'I'm on top of the game here'... its just sinful pride. I felt I'd come to a stage in my life where I could do just fine with stuff I already knew and believe me when I say I knew alot. But that's a fallacy of epic proportions but I didnt realize it. I was feeling just fine doing stuff for the Lord you know. So at at the beginning of the next year when this madness was at it's peak I decided to go on a fast and seek the Lord's face. The new year was staring me in the face and I had big plans to suceeed personally and do bigger things for the Lord. But when I look back I realize my motives where messed up. Like our Warri brethren would say, 'I no wan carry last' and I knew God was the only forc...

Personal interest and not imagination rules the world. Personal interest can launch a thousand battleships, drive mankind to the extremes,blind us to the needs of others, and blur the distinct lines between good and evil. Only those who exist for something, a divine course outside and beyond themselves will seek truth, know the truth and accept it at all costs and then live for it. These are the few true heroes who walk among us. We all pay homage to God's word and declare it as the divine standard. But when it conflicts with our personal interests we begin to prove that we are masters in the art of manipulation and subversion. When truth is hidden behind the mask of interpretation our personal interests always wins. You discover personal interest behind the veil of moral, spiritual compromise and the plethora of false doctrines flooding the church, I am of the opinion that no doctrine contrary to God's word will be propounded, peddled or accepted if it does not profit som...

If God calls you to do something just do it! Forget if people notice and applaude or not. Eventually whatever is born (originates) of God overcomes the world. Soon people will wonder why they failed to notice such a gift. Don't consult your past, don't ever say 'but I'm prone to goofing things up' remember that He who called you is faithful. He will do it Himself but it will be on record that He used you to do it. Don't be intimidated by the giants that are already there. All giants started as babies too. If you persevere in obedience one day you too will become a giant. Stop struggling with people's impressions and perceptions about you. People hardly know how to stay in there lane so just ignore the whisperings and the mockery, real or percieved. Look into those perfect eyes of Jesus and you will see a perfect reflection of you. You don't have to tell everyone of the vision given to you by God. It will amaze you that some people you are pretty ...

I'm so sober this morning !. As I flipped the pancakes my kids insisted I make for their breakfast, I heard Him speaking to me about RESTORING TRUE REVERENCE FOR THE GOD HEAD! I knew I had to put it down quickly at the risk of burning breakfast. "Prayer is going on in church and you are outside doing whatever you think is more important. Praise and worship time is ideal for gisting with the girls and guys. But as soon as  your pastor climbs the pulpit you rush inside and sit, putting on your most sanctified expression. Who are you fooling? You have a problem and while I'm waiting  lovingly to discuss and resolve it with you, you're on your way dialing the number of whoever you believe has the solution to your troubles. Whose fooling who here? You would shiver at the thought of your pastor discovering some private aspects of your life and would faint if any one threatened to expose it, but you have no qualms with the fact that I'm living within you and ha...

Scene 1 'How can a believer commit such abomination?' his face was hot and his eyes red with righteous indignition. The object of the discussion was another brother who had fallen into the sin of fornication. He wasnt 'swimming' or even 'basking' in sin, it was a terrible mistake he'd made by being ignorant of the devices of satan and failing to put boundaries in place. He was crushed and had gone to 'report' himself and word somehow got out. So this our other brother was raving and ranting about 'holiness' not understanding that the very fact that he was still standing was not because he was some super hero but purely a function of grace. If he understood grace it would have made him humble. I could never forget his words, they were righteous, but reflected a mean and unforgiving disposition...and I wondered, 'why do we christians sometimes find it harder to forgive than God?' The story didn't end there, it wasn't t...